Sunday, December 28, 2014

Almost three years later....

  It's been three years since the suicide of Amanda Todd, and every year I do something stupid huh? Either participate in interviews, or talk openly about my views. Even though the topic has still died, no one really understands how this has impacted my life. I want to update anyone who Googles this eventually one day, on what I think to this day.

  Sure the internet has a lot that's happened and to them it may seem like old news, but... When I Google my name, I come up. People from school knew who I was. Even when I entered high school. No one can fully understand how this made me feel at the time of the release. I felt like my privacy had been invaded. The first interview with Enigmahood, I was fully UNAWARE that I was being filmed, despite what other people thought. I was about fourteen, and in eighth grade. Who as I to know that what I said would have made such an impact on my life? No, I'm not saying that this will make a life-long lasting effect on my life (because it won't) but... It certainly has made an indent in my teenage years. I have had FBI come to my door at the age of fourteen over me simply giving in information. Had (ignorant) people say I should go to hell for what I did! Did what? This made a mark on me for a long time to come.

  Since I last spoke openly about my experience with the whole "internet scandal" or whatnot, and my relationship with Kody a year ago, I realized something. I realized that he truly disgusts me. No, not because he had anything to do with Amanda Todd (I stand behind everything I've said thus far, regarding his involvement.) Just simply because I realized how much of a pig he was. I found him once again, behind girls on the internet after he found someone in person. Although that isn't any of my concern, you'd think someone who went through this wouldn't once again pursue any involvement with  a GIRL (not a woman, a GIRL.) I am truly disgusted and appalled that I ever stood that closely by his side. Although I am disgusted by Kody Maxson, I cannot say I change my opinions on his involvement in the case. We don't know what happened, we can only judge by the evidence we have and quite frankly, there isn't anything against Kody. I just wanted to share that, not for anyone else, but for myself. I wanted to be at peace with the fact I released my thoughts and opinions.

  I'll end it here, and this will be the last update I ever make on this case but lets all remember... We can't always trust what the eye can see, because that'd make us blind to justice.